What Am I Thinking About Now?: Reading, Writing, and The Threat of the Machine Logos

I could give an excuser why I haven’t blogged, but I’m not going to. I just didn’t, maybe my blogging abilities have run dry. I have no real desire to blog and this one may be cut off short because of the way the keyboard is working. You have no idea how many spelling mistakes I’ve made an I know how to freakin type.

A good reason why I haven’t been working on my novel. It’s at a bit of a dry spot at the moment as I have lost some of my fire. Let that be a lesson to you kids, when your working on a scene get it done as soon as possible or you’ll get board. I’ve also tried writing poetry, but at the moment all my poetry seems to be about visions of the apocalypse, which probably says more about my own angsiaties then the Mayan Calander.  Not to say that my novel is all happy fun-times. What started out as a book to bang out my frustrations against the Bush administration has turned into a meditation on the nature of faith in a world that seems to be ruled by evil forces. What is the purpose of God in the world? Why do bad things happen to good people? That sort of thing. As far as my mental health goes, this is not helping. Last night I was up till the wee hours reading “The Devil’s Delusion: Atheism and its scientific pretensions,” by David Berlinski, mostly so I could get over the anxiety that is the entire debate. This whole Science+Atheism+Materialism freaks the hell out of me, and the fact that the one guy who knows the most about science is a transhumanist and believes we will be uploaded into machine clouds to live eternally is kind of scary. I find it kind of disturbing why someone would want to do that, it’s to close to playing God for me. There’s also this whole aspect that he’s trying to control human thought, or at least get it so set up that someone else will be controlling my thoughts and I do not feel comfortable having thought police institutionalized. If the human brain is like a computer, like my transhumanist friend says, then it can be reprogrammed like a computer and be put to other uses. As computers do not seem to have independent consciousness, this is not a problem for them, but humans do have an independent consciousness. We can compute independently from outside forces, and by compute I mean imagine, do science and all that. I have difficulty getting this past my transhumanist friend, because I am a writer with a huge influence from William Blake and Alan Moore, I believe the world of the mind has legitimacy of it’s own. I’m sure my transhumanist friend is right and the natural world has it’s own beauty, but there is to much thought on conquering that beauty. From what I can see, science is just as easily used to destroy as it is to create. I can appreciate the natural world without knowing how the whole thing works, and I can appreciate it more without all the money-grubbing bastards drilling up oil only to have it splurt everywhere, or have entire mountains strip-mined. And further more, imagination is just as beautiful as the material world and so far not as ruined by the capitalists and the atheists, though I’m pretty sure these new atheists have no respect for that either. If they have no respect for God then they probably have no respect for the creative process, it’s fruits (especially in our western civilization, where it is all but impossible to truely move away from the Bible as an imaginative source of inspiration. See Dostoevsky, Melville, Ginsberg, compare “Joe Hill” with the story of Christ, and a bunch of other stuff.

Anyways, back to writing. I was worried about becoming known as a science fiction writer. As far as that goes, I think there is supposed to be at least some interest in science and as far as that goes I’m only interested in that as a way of trying to figure out how it can harm us. I do have ideas for science fiction, and I’ll be damned if I’m known totally as a writer of realist or naturalist fiction (though the idea is slightly appealing). I’m just ticked off at science for the most part, mainly since I see scientists as the self-righteous control freaks such as the Catholic Church. They want to stick themselves up as the only way to explain everything. I’m interested in consciousness though, mostly since I don’t understand it and am hoping that it is untouchable by these freaks. Anyways, my point is I don’t want to be known as a science fiction writer, so much as someone who writes something like science fiction. This may not be problem, as science fiction is becoming slightly more accepted in the field of literature, and the fact I’m also trying to become a poet I’m probably going to have that to stand on. Anyways, these worries are probably unfounded and I should get back to working on my novel.

I’m Back

It’s been a long time since my last post and I’m not going to apologize. People apologize when they don’t blog for a while, and to be honest I don’t think I have that much of an audience. I’ve probably lost most of it anyways.

Alright, so basically I have nothing to post about. I’ve just not posted for well over a month and I want you to know that I’m still alive. I’ve been concentrating a lot on my exams, which will be done in a month and things are slowly looking up. At the moment I’m feeling slightly depressed and want to get started on my novel which I am not doing because I am lazy and not that good at getting novels started. I was feeling better earlier as I had one of my

My Spiritual Journey is getting better as I think I finally have a handle on this whole prayer thing. I watched a video about Eastern Orthodoxy recently, and the priest talked quite a lot about how to pray. Basically I only need to say something really basic like “Bless me, O Lord,” a couple of times, not at regular intervals but I should try to do it a lot and since its pretty easy to say “Bless me, O Lord,” with sincerity, especially if you believe in a God that you can feasibly call the Lord. That said, I am feel slightly ambivalent of Christianity sometimes, as I’m wondering if other deities have as much right to be called God as The Father, Son and Holy Spirit. That’s not going to stop me going to a Catholic Mass however, but I’ll probably not go into to deep of a spiritual conversation with any of them, I just want to see what a Mass looks like since I feel I can appreciate it’s symbolism.

Anyways, I’ve got some ideas for blog posts and I’ll try to keep up with you all pretty soon. Hope that I actually do post on this.

Filtering out the good stuff and chucking the gunk

Well, here it is. My new blog. For those of you who don’t know, I used to have a blog called “The Aspie Diaries.” That was getting a bit frustrating and I felt I needed to start a new one, mainly since I’m not the human being who started that blog. This is what I hope to be a more mature blog to focus any thoughts I have regarding what I usually ponder about, such as life, religion, the nature of ideas, writing and role-playing. Expect fan material for White Wolf’s World of Darkness line.
While I had your attention, I thought I’d bring up what this blog is supposed to be and why I called it something as crazy as SOLVE ET COAGULA. Knowing some of my audience, such as Jason from the Chasing Hermes podcast, I really don’t need to explain what that is. However, the vast majority of my readers (i.e. my family) probably have no idea what I’m talking about. And what’s with calling my blog psychic-refugees.blogspot.com, anyways?
Well, the psychic refugees thing is easy enough. It was part of an early title for this blog, something like Psychic Refugees of the Lost Aeon or Psychic Refugees of an Unknown Generation. While these names had cool words like Aeon and Generation, I didn’t really like them. Earlier ideas were Exegesis, which I stole from Philip K. Dick, and Incorrectly Decoded Signals, which I stole from a William S. Burroughs quote. Neither of these felt right, so instead I decided to go SOLVE ET COAGULA.
Solve Et Coagula is an alchemical phrase, which basically means “To take apart and then to reassemble.” I first heard it in the documentary “The Mindscapes of Alan Moore,” where famous comic book writer and magician Alan Moore used it to explain art. To put it at it’s most basic, he said that modern art concentrates too much on the SOLVE(taking apart) and not enough on the COAGULA(putting back together). Also in that documentary he put forth his idea that writing is fundamentally a magical act, as the artist creates something out of nothing.
Alan Moore’s thesis is similar to that of the Remodernists, an English art movement I discovered over the Internet. They are a reaction about trends in English art to call pickled sharks or unmade beds art. The Remodernists are into pure art, which is to say art that has spiritual meaning to it and is not ruled by the empty commercialists of the day.
I’m not a painter, but I am a writer and a poet. For the most part I’m oblivious to modern art and writing, though I am a fan of slam poetry and Roberto Bolano, as well as the British Wave of Comic Book writers that started in the 1980s (Alan Moore is the leading figure in this movement, though a trend is probably a better word). I do believe that my writing should be meaningful, if only because I want my life to be meaingful. Which brings us about to the reason I’m starting this blog. It is, in many ways an alchemical sequel to my last blog, “The Aspie Diaries.” I feel that that blog has been weighing me down, that I had developed outside it’s bonds and it’s time for me to spread out my wings and remake myself. SOLVE ET COAGULA is the tool by which I plan on doing that. Hopefully this blog will be a new home for my thoughts and musings, and hopefully I can keep it going.
Well, hope that is a good explanation and enjoy my writing.