I’m Back

It’s been a long time since my last post and I’m not going to apologize. People apologize when they don’t blog for a while, and to be honest I don’t think I have that much of an audience. I’ve probably lost most of it anyways.

Alright, so basically I have nothing to post about. I’ve just not posted for well over a month and I want you to know that I’m still alive. I’ve been concentrating a lot on my exams, which will be done in a month and things are slowly looking up. At the moment I’m feeling slightly depressed and want to get started on my novel which I am not doing because I am lazy and not that good at getting novels started. I was feeling better earlier as I had one of my

My Spiritual Journey is getting better as I think I finally have a handle on this whole prayer thing. I watched a video about Eastern Orthodoxy recently, and the priest talked quite a lot about how to pray. Basically I only need to say something really basic like “Bless me, O Lord,” a couple of times, not at regular intervals but I should try to do it a lot and since its pretty easy to say “Bless me, O Lord,” with sincerity, especially if you believe in a God that you can feasibly call the Lord. That said, I am feel slightly ambivalent of Christianity sometimes, as I’m wondering if other deities have as much right to be called God as The Father, Son and Holy Spirit. That’s not going to stop me going to a Catholic Mass however, but I’ll probably not go into to deep of a spiritual conversation with any of them, I just want to see what a Mass looks like since I feel I can appreciate it’s symbolism.

Anyways, I’ve got some ideas for blog posts and I’ll try to keep up with you all pretty soon. Hope that I actually do post on this.

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University, Role-Playing Games, My Spiritual Journey and Socializing

Well, it’s been awhile since my last post, so for this one I will be going over recent events in my life.

University

Several papers have been assighned to me, and I will shortly be starting on my various projects. Thankfully, they all have various levels of fun. The least fun paper will be about the development of pacifism in the Mennonite Church in the context of the Munster revolts. That said, this is proving to be very interesting for me as pacifism is the number one thing that I picked up from my Mennonite upbringing, and it will deal with issues that I find very interesting, such as radical revolutions in a Christian context and the interplay between pacifist resistance and violent revolution.

My next paper, for Philosophy of Literature, will be a paper on a book outside my current subject matter. I was feeling kind of down about my success in this class, as half the books I need to read I am in great fear of actually reading. Thankfully, while I was reading the assignment paper I was overjoyed that one of the options. Fyodor Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment or The Brothers Karamazov. Dostoevsky is one of my favorite writers, and unlike Brave New World, these are books that I would greatly like to read again. This was made all the better in that I was wearing my Dostoevsky t-shirt. Yeah, that’s how big a fan I am, I have Dostoevsky’s face on a t-shirt.

Finally, the crowning achievement in fun papers, is my Survey of British Literature paper. This is my first creative writing assignment in a University class. One of the options I had to take was to write a Petrarchan sonnet on the subject of nature. This I did, and now I have to compare it to two other sonnets from the Romantic period. I’m very glad that this was an option I could take in writing a paper. Also, I had been toying with writing sonnets for sometime, but this is the first time that I have ever completed one.

Role-Playing Games

Basically, I’m in one. I’m playing in a Hunter: the Vigil game. This is a follow up to the last update, and I am playing the “offbeat FBI Agent.” The game is going pretty well, even if it’s just me and another guy. Mind you, the other guy is playing a cop, so if we don’t get any other PCs not involved in law enforcement, we got ourselves a cop show. Only instead of tracking down heroin dealers, we’re investigating spontaneous combustion.

Yeah, people spontaneously combusted. The Storyteller doesn’t even know how that happened. I’ll probably have to do a write up for the character at some point.

The Changeling Camarilla game also looks like it will come up soon. Last I heard it will be starting around March.

My Spiritual Journey

I’ve been learning a lot about how Christians can be real dicks, mostly to other Christians, and I’m beginning to get a bit feed up with Abrahamic religions for awhile. Because of this, I have been looking a bit into my esoteric interests in spirituality. This has taken me to an area of town I have little experience with, which was fun and educational. It turns out that the place I was looking for had been closed for 12 years, but it was still nice to get out and use the bus station. I have also found another place that deals in New Age stuff which is closer and has free tea. Since I’m a University student, free things are always good, and it’s kind of interesting to have tea out of a crock pot.

I’ve also begun more regular tarot readings and so far I have received what I believe to be accurate predictions, especially with the Rider-Waite deck which I have a batter handle on then the Marseilles deck. I am keeping a special book to keep tabs on the tarot readings, with notes on what the cards said at the time, as well as what I believe the predictions to be. My¬† last reading was two or three days ago and was with the Marseilles deck. The readings were largely mysterious to me.

Socializing

While on the bus to the closed bookstore, I had the good fortune to meet an individual who was reading a magazine. I noticed that he was reading about the tarot, and since I’m very interested in the tarot I decided to talk with him. Turns out he’s a poet and invited me to a local poetry get together. I’m looking forward to this, as it gives me a chance to brush up on reading my poetry in public.

Filtering out the good stuff and chucking the gunk

Well, here it is. My new blog. For those of you who don’t know, I used to have a blog called “The Aspie Diaries.” That was getting a bit frustrating and I felt I needed to start a new one, mainly since I’m not the human being who started that blog. This is what I hope to be a more mature blog to focus any thoughts I have regarding what I usually ponder about, such as life, religion, the nature of ideas, writing and role-playing. Expect fan material for White Wolf’s World of Darkness line.
While I had your attention, I thought I’d bring up what this blog is supposed to be and why I called it something as crazy as SOLVE ET COAGULA. Knowing some of my audience, such as Jason from the Chasing Hermes podcast, I really don’t need to explain what that is. However, the vast majority of my readers (i.e. my family) probably have no idea what I’m talking about. And what’s with calling my blog psychic-refugees.blogspot.com, anyways?
Well, the psychic refugees thing is easy enough. It was part of an early title for this blog, something like Psychic Refugees of the Lost Aeon or Psychic Refugees of an Unknown Generation. While these names had cool words like Aeon and Generation, I didn’t really like them. Earlier ideas were Exegesis, which I stole from Philip K. Dick, and Incorrectly Decoded Signals, which I stole from a William S. Burroughs quote. Neither of these felt right, so instead I decided to go SOLVE ET COAGULA.
Solve Et Coagula is an alchemical phrase, which basically means “To take apart and then to reassemble.” I first heard it in the documentary “The Mindscapes of Alan Moore,” where famous comic book writer and magician Alan Moore used it to explain art. To put it at it’s most basic, he said that modern art concentrates too much on the SOLVE(taking apart) and not enough on the COAGULA(putting back together). Also in that documentary he put forth his idea that writing is fundamentally a magical act, as the artist creates something out of nothing.
Alan Moore’s thesis is similar to that of the Remodernists, an English art movement I discovered over the Internet. They are a reaction about trends in English art to call pickled sharks or unmade beds art. The Remodernists are into pure art, which is to say art that has spiritual meaning to it and is not ruled by the empty commercialists of the day.
I’m not a painter, but I am a writer and a poet. For the most part I’m oblivious to modern art and writing, though I am a fan of slam poetry and Roberto Bolano, as well as the British Wave of Comic Book writers that started in the 1980s (Alan Moore is the leading figure in this movement, though a trend is probably a better word). I do believe that my writing should be meaningful, if only because I want my life to be meaingful. Which brings us about to the reason I’m starting this blog. It is, in many ways an alchemical sequel to my last blog, “The Aspie Diaries.” I feel that that blog has been weighing me down, that I had developed outside it’s bonds and it’s time for me to spread out my wings and remake myself. SOLVE ET COAGULA is the tool by which I plan on doing that. Hopefully this blog will be a new home for my thoughts and musings, and hopefully I can keep it going.
Well, hope that is a good explanation and enjoy my writing.